Re: I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good: Private Message to Sally-Anne Perks

[alt_pansy]

Right.

If we're going to do it, we need to do it today before I completely lose my nerve. We can ask Professor Brutka to see it after dinner, maybe, so we don't have to show up and look normal?

We could stop by Madame P's to pick up some dreamless sleep ahead of time, just in case.

You don't have to come along if you don't want to. But I need

I ought to see it. And if Harry and Draco and Hermione can get through it, I can too.

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[alt_sally_anne]

If you're going to see it, I'm going to see it.

If we try to get dreamless sleep she's going to want to know why. Do you want to explain to her why you think you need to watch the memory?

[alt_pansy]

I can if she asks.

I think of all of them, she's one of the people who'd understand reasons, even if she might put up a fuss about it.

[alt_pansy]

I know she had good reason for not giving the potion to us.

Still.

At least we've got the warm milk. That was rather nice.

[alt_sally_anne]

Yeah.

I still have the tisane I got in trouble for, too, with valerian and chamomile and the rest. So there's that.

So

Did you see what you were looking for?

[alt_pansy]

Yes.

I did.

His hand was trembling. When he took the blood. And when Mr Selwyn was killed, he went so white and still and careful. Draco was right. He might not have been in on the plan, but he wasn't enjoying what happened.

He was afraid.

And if he hadn't been

Well.

He was.

[alt_sally_anne]

I don't think you, or Draco, or Harry, or anyone we know should try to get on the Council.

[alt_pansy]

yes.

I think you're right in that I probably am not quite Council material.

And for all his talk about how he wants to know everything, and he wants to learn what he has to

I don't want Draco to have to do those sorts of things.

He would, you know, if he thought it'd serve a purpose.

If he thought it was necessary.

[alt_sally_anne]

Really? He'd cut out a man's heart, a stranger's heart, if the Lord Protector told him to?

What if it were a friend's heart? Because Auror Crouch and Professor Dolohov were the ones who brought Mr Selwyn to be tortured and killed. And he was a friend of theirs.

The Lord Protector makes his closest followers do TERRIBLE THINGS. Sometimes to muggles, sometimes to 'traitors,' sometimes to EACH OTHER.

[alt_pansy]

I don't know. I really don't.

I just don't want him to feel like it's what he'd have to do.

Like we were talking about. Finding other ways we could be of use.

[alt_sally_anne]

Well.

They HAVE a spy on the Council, as it happens. Headmistress McGonagall.

What they really need is someone in the Department of Mysteries.

[alt_pansy]

Right.

[alt_pansy]

And Mr Selwyn is right.

The Council isn't safe. They get used up and thrown away, just like Regulus was. He doesn't care about any of them. He just cares about keeping his power and staying alive forever.

[alt_sally_anne]

Yes.

I was trying to decide whether any of the Councilwizards there were listening.

[alt_pansy]

They're sort of trapped, aren't they?

Even if they wanted to leave, there's only two ways that would happen. Either they die, or he does.

[alt_sally_anne]

Yeah.

That's probably what Selwyn pointed out to the people he recruited to help him.

[alt_pansy]

Did you see the man -- Prince Charles -- when he lay down, he...

I don't even know if I can put it into words. But it was almost like I thought he'd start doing magic. Because of how hard he was concentrating.

And at one point I was by Harry and Raz, and Harry looked so lost.

[alt_sally_anne]

Yes. That was exactly what he looked like. Like he was trying to do a really difficult spell. He was a muggle, though. I think he was trying to hold still because he was afraid they'd hurt his son if he didn't.

The man who killed him, Mulciber. He looked like he enjoyed it. At least Mr Malfoy didn't look like he was enjoying any part of it. Professor Dolohov, either.

[alt_sally_anne]

There's an awful lot of blood inside a person.

[alt_pansy]

Yes.