Private Message to Draco Malfoy

[alt_pansy]

Hello.

How are you getting on, then?

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[alt_draco]

Yeah, Durmstrang...

I...did something really idiotic just now. I wasn't even thinking, I was just feeling frustrated because I'd had a fire talk with Father about Mother's health and did you see who I PMed?

Now I've really made a mess of things.

[alt_pansy]

I wrote Regulus after he died, you know.

And Susan Bones wrote Hannah.

I think it's sort of... I don't know... comforting to write to someone who can't write back. Like you can say things that would sound stupid if you just wrote them to yourself.

How angry

I'm sure it's not as bad as you think.

[alt_draco]

I very stupidly forgot that Mother would be able to see who I'd written to, and now she's very concerned and asking why I would do that.

Because she's been denying that he's dead, you know. She won't even hear a word of it, and Father has no idea what to do.

I think I've just made things worse...

[alt_pansy]

Well.

That is tricky.

I can see why she'd want to keep believing that he isn't.

But it's not your responsibility to tell her that he is.

That's for her to sort out in her own time. And if she wants to keep on for a bit longer than everyone else, then she's got every right to, seeing as how close they were.

Maybe...

Maybe what she needs right now is for you to let her do things her way?

[alt_draco]

There were other people who were close to him, too, and they're not denying the truth of what happened.

It's just...what if she never accepts it.

You should have seen how Father looked. I mean, it was hard to tell through the flames, but he was really upset. Moreso than I can remember seeing him in a long time.

[alt_pansy]

Well, Sirius Black was supposed to be dead, and he sort of maybe isn't. And Regulus disappeared for years and years before coming back, and they never did find his body.

So maybe that's where she gets it from.

I think it's that your mum is always so sensible. And she's been under a terrible lot of stress lately.

I'm sure she'll come round, though.

[alt_draco]

Pansy...

If I tell you something.

[alt_pansy]

Yes?

[alt_draco]

You know a good Imperturbable charm?

Nevermind, mine's pretty good. Harry and I have always gotten by with it, anyway.

Let's meet in the common room in twenty minutes, if you can? You can walk with me to the potions storeroom. That should be a good place.

And then maybe afterwards we can have that game of portkey.

[alt_pansy]

I'll be there.

[alt_draco]

And now she just wrote to me "he's on an important mission, he had to leave all of his belongings behind, including his wand and his journal, but he'll be coming back when his mission is over..."

So you're telling me he left his WHOLE BODY behind, too? Must be some deadly important mission indeed.

Sorry, I was really trying not to just unload, I really was.

[alt_pansy]

Oh, Draco, don't worry about that. Honestly. It seems like we've been taking turns keeping one another's heads above water lately, hasn't it? This is just your turn, is all. It'll be mine again soon.

[alt_draco]

Well, now Mother and I are practically having a row. Good way to spend a Sunday night, yeah?


How are things with Rosa these days, anyway?

[alt_pansy]

You know. Baby this, baby that, baby, baby, baby. I think she's really hoping for a son, because the Campbell clan and everything.

It's tiresome, but it's expected.

I can certainly think of more enjoyable things to do. You could see how much better at portkey you are then me, if you'd rather.