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alt_pansySee what he wrote?
That is what's going to give me another ulcer.
Writing these messages in secret is one thing.
Knowing they have wands and not turning them in is another.
And we've already crossed that line, and Merlin help us if they ever get caught with their wands out, because the first thing they're going to ask is where did you get them, and the second thing they're going to ask is who all knew about it, and they have ways of getting people to say things and even if they swear up and down they won't tell about us or the lock that doesn't mean anything when you're getting tortured and it wouldn't be their fault but we'd be in awful awful trouble
and it is a whole other level of bad if we get caught teaching them things
and I know you feel like they ought to learn things and have wands and all and deserve a chance
and I know that they've gotten the wands from some other people that think the same thing too
and I'm not saying that those things are all bollocks, or not true, but we oughtn't be responsible for teaching them, because it's just too dangerous, I mean, they can hardly get away from their masters as it is, and if we were ever all found together, working on magic, or teaching them things, or even talking to them too much outside of these things, people will get suspicious and start looking for things like those papers more closely and that's the end of it.
I mean did the people think about that? The ones that up and gave them the wands? That if they ever got caught actually using them, they'd be killed or worse? I mean it's one thing to think that maybe just maybe someone ought to have a chance at something, but this could get them killed and get you sent to the camps and Merlin knows what they'd do to the rest of us and the whole reason I went under this thing in the first place was because if I would've told they had wands and a secret way of talking they would have died and I already have enough blood on my hands to last me a lifetime and I just think this won't work. This teaching them thing. Because it just massively increases the chances that something could go wrong. because them learning things in private isn't safe anymore either, obviously, only who is going to tell them to stop learning things because it might hurt more than just them because it'll make me look like a giant hateful thing and I already know Granger could care less about my opinion and I know Lee said something but they nearly got caught and if they get caught so do we and it's all a big mess and I don't know what to do
That is what's going to give me another ulcer.
Writing these messages in secret is one thing.
Knowing they have wands and not turning them in is another.
And we've already crossed that line, and Merlin help us if they ever get caught with their wands out, because the first thing they're going to ask is where did you get them, and the second thing they're going to ask is who all knew about it, and they have ways of getting people to say things and even if they swear up and down they won't tell about us or the lock that doesn't mean anything when you're getting tortured and it wouldn't be their fault but we'd be in awful awful trouble
and it is a whole other level of bad if we get caught teaching them things
and I know you feel like they ought to learn things and have wands and all and deserve a chance
and I know that they've gotten the wands from some other people that think the same thing too
and I'm not saying that those things are all bollocks, or not true, but we oughtn't be responsible for teaching them, because it's just too dangerous, I mean, they can hardly get away from their masters as it is, and if we were ever all found together, working on magic, or teaching them things, or even talking to them too much outside of these things, people will get suspicious and start looking for things like those papers more closely and that's the end of it.
I mean did the people think about that? The ones that up and gave them the wands? That if they ever got caught actually using them, they'd be killed or worse? I mean it's one thing to think that maybe just maybe someone ought to have a chance at something, but this could get them killed and get you sent to the camps and Merlin knows what they'd do to the rest of us and the whole reason I went under this thing in the first place was because if I would've told they had wands and a secret way of talking they would have died and I already have enough blood on my hands to last me a lifetime and I just think this won't work. This teaching them thing. Because it just massively increases the chances that something could go wrong. because them learning things in private isn't safe anymore either, obviously, only who is going to tell them to stop learning things because it might hurt more than just them because it'll make me look like a giant hateful thing and I already know Granger could care less about my opinion and I know Lee said something but they nearly got caught and if they get caught so do we and it's all a big mess and I don't know what to do
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Date: 2011-04-26 12:44 am (UTC)I don't --
I mean, maybe if I was a Gryffindor I wouldn't care. It won't much matter, if they find out we KNEW and didn't say anything, whether we helped teach them or not. But trying to meet up like that to TEACH just increases the risk to all of us about 100 times over. We can't, we really can't.
I'll say something. I guess partly I was thinking about Ron saying I always think about the worst possibility instead of thinking about what's fun (or what's RIGHT or...)
I don't have any idea what the people who gave them wands were thinking. Maybe that it could get them killed but they'd probably think it was worth it even if it did.
If someone offered my mum a wand, she'd probably say no. Because if they caught her with it, they might hurt ME. That's the only reason she'd say no. If she was the only one at risk, she'd take it in a heartbeat.
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Date: 2011-04-26 01:42 am (UTC)I'm sorry. I didn't mean to go all W&W, but I haven't been getting a ton of sleep lately, and I tried to keep all calm with Nev and the book, but there's only so much calm I can be right now.
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Date: 2011-04-26 01:57 am (UTC)Do you want to sit by the lake and talk about him sometime?
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Date: 2011-04-26 02:25 am (UTC)He would have tried to kill himself for the first time a year ago next Thursday.
And he finally went through with it two weeks after that.
So really this whole next month is sort of terrible. Just in time for finals, right?
Yes. I think I would like that. I know I tend to go on and on about things sometimes, sort of like I'm a broken record, and it must get tiresome to hear, but everything feels so raw right now and the Dementors don't help one bit.
At least Patil isn't being awful. If she was, I really don't think I could stand being here right now.
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Date: 2011-04-26 03:39 am (UTC)And I really don't think I ever will.
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Date: 2011-04-26 04:12 am (UTC)Because I expect you to keep listening to me blather on about nothing when we're both old and wrinkly, so you're going to have to listen to me for a really really long time.
Bother.
Now I'm getting all weepy.
Would it be silly if I came over for a sleep-over tonight?
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Date: 2011-04-26 04:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-04-26 04:16 am (UTC)