ORDER ONLY: Private Message to Hydra and Sally-Anne

[alt_pansy]

I had the most vivid dream about Daphs last night. We were listening to music and she was going on and on about these plans she had for an academy of dramatic arts and she seemed so happy and wistful.

I miss her.

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[alt_sally_anne]

Yeah.

Every now and then something makes me think about one of the people we've lost. For me yesterday it was Neville. I was out in the Herbology beds to get something for a potion Madam Pomfrey needed and there were blooming narcissus in one of the beds. (It was an odd spot for them, I think someone put them there by mistake, or maybe they spread naturally when someone wasn't paying attention.)

I don't usually dream about them, though, I sort of wish I would.

[alt_hydra]

I miss her, too.

Mostly, I'm angry (or maybe it's sad, sometimes I can't tell which) that she's dead and her 'husband' is still alive. I'm angry that he probably doesn't even care or spare her a second thought. I'm sad that she thought marrying him was one of the best ways she could help us.

[alt_sally_anne]

Well, when I think about that part, mostly I feel guilty. Because I was the one who told her about the Order, and recruited her.

[alt_pansy]

Yeah. It makes me sad too. Because we could really use her now, you know? She'd be phenomenal at making everyone feel good about being part of this, and charming the purebloods who are afraid, and

Barty Crouch is just awful and needs to up and die. Sooner rather than later.

ugh.

[alt_pansy]

It's endlessly creepy how fixated he is on you, by the way.

At least that's a possible chink in his armour, but honestly, it's weird and sad. Do you think he honestly believes he's got a hold on you? Or that he's trying to rattle you?

I understand if you'd rather not talk about it. But he's awful, and I'm sorry he's being a bother.

[alt_hydra]

You still did the right thing.

But guilt is a funny emotion. It's not very rational.

[alt_hydra]

I don't know what he thinks, except that he must feel some sense of ownership over me.

He isn't trying to rattle me, really. He's hunting me, and he thinks he's going to kill me one day. Or bring me to my mother to be killed.

[alt_pansy]

Which just makes my skin crawl. Seriously. What gives him the right?

Anyways. Maybe he'll get obsessive enough about it that he'll trip up.

[alt_hydra]

He really isn't the sort of person who trips up.

[alt_pansy]

I'd imagine not, no.