Private Message to Draco Malfoy
May. 30th, 2012 12:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Can Harry loan out his cloak for the rest of the day?
Just kidding.
Sort of.
It's just getting really hard to keep up a normal-looking face.
Just kidding.
Sort of.
It's just getting really hard to keep up a normal-looking face.
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Date: 2012-05-30 04:39 pm (UTC)Whoever "they" are...
What do you mean "keep up" a normal looking face? Like...since this morning, you mean?
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Date: 2012-05-30 04:49 pm (UTC)It's embarrassing, and mean-spirited, and I don't guess I knew that many people disliked me quite that much, but in the grand scheme of things it's a nasty drawing on a piece of paper. That's all.
And I can say that to myself over and over, but it doesn't work. Because these past two weeks, I've been trying really hard not to think about things that would make me feel sad. And it just feels like I used all that up and I've got nothing left.
All I want to do is curl up next to you in a place where no-one's watching and not think any more about any of it.
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Date: 2012-05-30 04:57 pm (UTC)I should think you're making it worse by trying to stifle it all back and not think about things.
See, I hardly ever get sad, I just get angry. Which is why if I find out who posted those drawings, they'll get a nasty surprise in the near future.
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Date: 2012-05-30 06:35 pm (UTC)And I know it can't be all that fun to be around.
But you've got a good point.
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Date: 2012-05-30 09:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-05-30 10:11 pm (UTC)well, because I'm scared.
I love being with you, and I'm scared of ruining it, because look at me, Draco. I mess everything up.
And I really don't want to mess things up with you, and even when I try not to, something like this happens to remind me of how messy I am. And how much I don't deserve you.
I
I like you so much. I respect you. I love talking to you and being with you and snogging you and making you smile the way you do when we're alone and I want
I want to be the sort of girlfriend your parents would be happy with. But I don't know if I ever can be and it scares me because I think
I'm all jumbled up today. I'm sorry.
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Date: 2012-05-30 10:29 pm (UTC)...There's more we should talk about, but we should probably wait til this all blows over, yeah?
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Date: 2012-05-30 10:44 pm (UTC)And in the meantime, I could use a hug. From my wonderful boyfriend.
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Date: 2012-05-30 10:50 pm (UTC)Maybe two.
Meet you in the common room?
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Date: 2012-05-30 10:56 pm (UTC)